Saturday, April 16, 2011


Another one of those powerful four letter words I suppose. In any case life, right. Now is one of those times when I feel, out of it... I've had a great day (a party and then even more time with some friends); but I fell like I'm just floating through my days. Or rather, when something is happening I'm there but as soon as I'm by myself I can't do anything. I'm forced to... think. Horrible right? Me, thinking, no way! Hahah, okay laugh all you want. My point is that I keep on thinking about the impossible, about those dreams that everyone has of the perfect life that will never come true. Earlier today a friend and I were joking about how I was going to live in a mansion by a horse ranch (giant library included in that mansion) and she was going to have a cottage by the seaside. Then whenever we needed a change we'd just go visit the other person. Think about how impossible that actually is though. I feel as though I have no control over the future, or even the present sometimes. As for the past... there are so many things I wish I could change. I suppose all I can do is stand up and take charge of my life; but I'm having the hardest time making myself do that. It's so easy to just sit back and watch as life slips by... too easy...

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


It's a strange thing isn't it. Even the word love is sort of odd. Just four letters that stand for so much. Just think about how many different kinds of love there is. There's the love you have for family, the love you have for friends, and the love you have for those friends that are so close they practically are family. There's the love you feel for YW leaders and those teachers who let you get away with just about anything. Then there are the other types of love, the serious types. There's the love when you fall in love, like seriously fall in love (not that I know what that feels like), and there's the love that people claim to feel for others in high school. The last type I don't believe in. That time of love just doesn't exist in High Schools; but try to get other people to admit that. Funny that a four letter word can take so long to explain...

Monday, April 11, 2011


It makes me laugh when you ask a friend a question on facebook, REALLY want an answer, and they decide to ignore it. Alright, so it was a hard question; and it probably made them think about life a bit more than they wanted to; but that was the point! In any case I don't think I'm going to get my answer any time soon and since they don't even know about this blog it's not like this post is going to change anything. I just wish they would answer the stupid question.

Friday, April 1, 2011


For the first time EVER I bought wine. Don't worry it wasn't to drink. For Christmas my brother gave me a French Cookbook and nearly all the recipes call for wine; so today I decided to make one of the recipes. The most amusing part of this whole thing was when I got home and realized that the wine bottle had a cork that did NOT want to come out. It took two screws, a pair of pliers, and my dad holding the bottle while I pulled to get it to come out. In the end though the dinner was a success! I love French recipes!