Drugs

Don't worry, I'm talking about prescription drugs here. I had my wisdom teeth out last Thursday and it was... interesting. It all went smoothly and I'm back to eating normal food now and all that good stuff... But I learned a little something about myself. They put me under for the operation. I don't remember much about the rest of that day. The interesting thing happened Friday. They'd given me the two painkillers to use as I needed them. One was a fairly typical and mild one that I was supposed to take every six hours. the other one was a rather serious drug, that one I took every four hours. Friday morning came around, and I took both my pills... Then things started getting interesting. The pills... turned me into a 12 year old. I was a rather strange child, and that all come back. I wandered around the house singing lullabies and other songs to myself. I sat down with our dog and explained to him exactly why having a garden was practical. I started asking my mom her favorite Disney Princesses... The list could just go on and on. In the end I took a nap and slept it off. The only time I used that pill again was Sunday night when I was in SERIOUS pain. So, I've decided that I don't like what drugs do to me. Yeah, drugs aren't good, even prescribed ones :P

A Fresh Start

Fishing

So, I wrote this post Monday... but my grandma's computer wouldn't let me press the publish button for some reason... so when it says today I mean Monday... yeah....

I learned today that the reason you call it fishing as opposed to catching, is because there is no guarantee that you're going to catch ANYTHING! So they just call it fishing. At least that's what my grandpa says. In any case I LOVED IT! My grandpa also says that a bad day fishing is still better than a good day at work. He couldn't have said it better. I'd rather be in the middle of the ocean than behind a school desk any day.

So, we went fishing today (just in case you hadn't realized that yet). Unfortunately my grandpa's boat is being worked on at the moment because he's getting new engines put in so we had to go on his friend Stan's boat. Stan's boat is a lot like my grandpa's. There's the main cabin, the upper deck, the back deck and the prow of the boat that you can walk along. Typically on my grandpa's boat I spend the majority of my time on the prow and the upper deck because that's where I feel... free. The upper deck is open and the wind blows by and the prow is just amazing. Unfortuantely on Stan's boat both of these areas were off limits. On the upper deck he had chords running all over so no one could go up there, and it was too windy out and the swells were too large to go on the prow (had I been on grandpa's boat I still probably wouldn't have been allowed up there).

Despite these setbacks I had an amazing time. As we were first going out the swells were so big that it felt like we were on a roller coaster. We stood, held onto the counter to keep our balance, and just went up and down and up and down. My dad and brother get seasick, but not me, never me. We dropped crab pots on our way out so that we could hopefully catch some crabs for dinner. Thanks to the windy cold weather the warm water where the salmon would be hiding was a good ways north, so we motored that way for about an hour before finally deciding to try letting down the lines. We did... and nothing bit. So we moved on and tried again... nothing. Eventually we did get one bite! I was the one who reeled it in and we got it safely in the net and on the deck... and it had a fin. That means it's wild and we have to throw it back. We were all disappointed. Well a few more hours passed and everyone was starting to get annoyed. There hadn't been another bite, we'd eaten most of the food, and everyone had slept as much as they could already (except for me, I sleep as little as possible on the boat, who would mant to miss out on ocean time!). Just when everyone was near their breaking point we got another bite. Erin tried to bring in this one, but she lost it. We couldn't go in until the tide changed. If we went in any sooner the chances of the crab pots having any crabs was really low, and we wanted SOMETHING! So we just kept on puttering around trying to tempt some fish to bite. Finally we got another bite, and then another. Two fish on at one time! Grandma took the first one but it got away. Aiden took the second one and we brought it in! Even better, it didn't have a fin, a keeper. Everyone was thrilled and we turned around to go over that spot again. After going aroudn in circles for another hour or two we finally decided to call it quits. We brought the lines back in and picked up speed, headed for the crab pots. How can I describe that ride back in... The sun was out and shining bright on the water and the blue sky made the ocean and blue as blue can be. The water had calmed and swells were rare and small. As we zoomed along I went out onto the back deck and looked over the side up towards the prow cutting through the water. As the prow sliced through the water was lifted and then fell. As it fell it trapped air so that there was this big bubble of water comming of the prow. Then it would fall and white foam came shooting up. It was breathtaking.

We got to the crab pots and found TONS! In the end we were able to keep 16 crabs, which we just finished eating now. They were delicious by the way. The rest of the way in I just looked out over the ocean. I only get to go fishing out there once a year, but that once a year is one of the best days of the year for me. I can still feel the boat swaying beneath me. Well, lets just say that I love the ocean. I love everything about it... So maybe not those stormes that create tsunamis that kill pople and destroy their homes... but everything else! Today has been great. :D

Vacations

So it's summer! Well, it has been for a while I suppose, I just haven't been so good about getting on this blog... like I haven't been on here since school go out... at all... I feel kinda bad about that. Well I'm on here now! So since I haven't been on here all summer, let's do a review of what it's been like for me. School got out and I sat around home, did chores, the basic summer things. Then there was Youth Conference (TONS OF FUN). After that it looked like I'd be sitting around doing nothing for three weeks as I waited for Girls Camp to come around, didn't turn out that way. Last minute I got to go on this AMAZING trip to Utah along with one of my favorite people to see another one of my favorite people... It was a pretty great trip! Then I had a week of downtime before Girls Camp (as always that was wonderful... well I suppose there was that one girl talking my ear off and driving me crazy... but other than that it was perfect). After Girls Camp was a week of downtime until we've reached now! Tomorrow I leave for a trip to the Oregon Coast. I get to go fishing on the ocean with my Grandpa and enjoy spending time in that beach house he bought. Oh, and I get to meet this guy my aunt is going to marry and his sons... I would be more excited about that but after a certain Second Cousin I met, well seeing their pictures was a bit of a letdown. Oh well! In any case it's going to be fun... I hope... you can never really tell ahead of time with these kinds of trips in question. I think that's the gist of my summer so far. I hope all goes well!

ELI

Well, yesterday was my ELI presentation; and it went off without a hitch! ELI is pretty much finished for the year now... goodness I'm going to miss that. I won't miss school of course; but meeting with Ivar was just so much fun! There is however good news. In my ELI presentation I just might have mentioned my need for WORD and along with that comes a laptop of my own... yeah... my parents noticed. We now have a deal of sorts. I show some real dedication to this editing thing (aka I look into what Publishing Houses are around BYU and BYUI as well as any that might be around Moscow and also check in with the people involved in the creative writing class at the university) and I get my laptop and word for my B-Day! Needless to say I am SO EXCITED! I wanted to look into editing connections anyway and I NEED a laptop! I hope everything works out!

Talking

Life

Another one of those powerful four letter words I suppose. In any case life, right. Now is one of those times when I feel, out of it... I've had a great day (a party and then even more time with some friends); but I fell like I'm just floating through my days. Or rather, when something is happening I'm there but as soon as I'm by myself I can't do anything. I'm forced to... think. Horrible right? Me, thinking, no way! Hahah, okay laugh all you want. My point is that I keep on thinking about the impossible, about those dreams that everyone has of the perfect life that will never come true. Earlier today a friend and I were joking about how I was going to live in a mansion by a horse ranch (giant library included in that mansion) and she was going to have a cottage by the seaside. Then whenever we needed a change we'd just go visit the other person. Think about how impossible that actually is though. I feel as though I have no control over the future, or even the present sometimes. As for the past... there are so many things I wish I could change. I suppose all I can do is stand up and take charge of my life; but I'm having the hardest time making myself do that. It's so easy to just sit back and watch as life slips by... too easy...

Love

It's a strange thing isn't it. Even the word love is sort of odd. Just four letters that stand for so much. Just think about how many different kinds of love there is. There's the love you have for family, the love you have for friends, and the love you have for those friends that are so close they practically are family. There's the love you feel for YW leaders and those teachers who let you get away with just about anything. Then there are the other types of love, the serious types. There's the love when you fall in love, like seriously fall in love (not that I know what that feels like), and there's the love that people claim to feel for others in high school. The last type I don't believe in. That time of love just doesn't exist in High Schools; but try to get other people to admit that. Funny that a four letter word can take so long to explain...

Questions

It makes me laugh when you ask a friend a question on facebook, REALLY want an answer, and they decide to ignore it. Alright, so it was a hard question; and it probably made them think about life a bit more than they wanted to; but that was the point! In any case I don't think I'm going to get my answer any time soon and since they don't even know about this blog it's not like this post is going to change anything. I just wish they would answer the stupid question.

Wine

For the first time EVER I bought wine. Don't worry it wasn't to drink. For Christmas my brother gave me a French Cookbook and nearly all the recipes call for wine; so today I decided to make one of the recipes. The most amusing part of this whole thing was when I got home and realized that the wine bottle had a cork that did NOT want to come out. It took two screws, a pair of pliers, and my dad holding the bottle while I pulled to get it to come out. In the end though the dinner was a success! I love French recipes!

SORRY

So, I haven't posted in a very, very, very long time. A lots been happening. For starters Junior Miss was last Saturday and I got SECOND! I'm kinda relieved it's over though. Then Tuesday my mom went and bought Tangled, my new official favorite Disney movie of all time. Another plus, this was Arts Fest week so a bunch of my classes went easy on me. To top it all off I just got back from Mr. MHS. Admittedly I didn't approve of who they picked as the winner but it made for a funny night. That's my life so far in a nutshell!

Spring Break

One of those weeks that just seem to fly by. It's absolutely insane. Between Junior Miss practice, building closets, sanding part of my room, and trying to have some fun life has gotten a little bit out of hand. In any case I have had fun driving my siblings insane with songs from different musicals. How anyone could prefer a Hannah Montana song over A Change In Me from Beauty and the Beast is a mystery to me.
Speaking of mysteries, I have one of my own that's been puzzling me. Last night I had a dream about a boy. Real shocker right. Anyway, in this dream there was one part where bandits or robbers came in and this boy and I were about to be forced to get married and it was just so real, well, except for the fact that the inside of the White House turned out to be a storeroom... Moving on, in that part of the dream there was one time where the boy had a chance to escape; but he chose to stay, he chose me instead of freedom. The weirdest thing of all, in the dream I was seriously in love with him. Oh, and to top it all off, I know that he goes to my school, I just can't remember which of all the boys who go to my school it was. Oh, and he was LDS too... That lowers it down to what, 15 boys. Bother, so last night in my dream I fell in love with someone and now I can't remember who it was. I wonder if he'll show up again tonight... I hope he does. Even though it's ridiculous I'd like to know who it is I fell in love with last night...

Here Comes Break

I know I haven't posted in forever; but life's just been... crazy. I am SO GLAD Spring Break is almost here. Without that to look forwards to I don't know how I'd get through tomorrow. Just one more day to get through. One more day with just one more Trig quiz. I can do this.

Makeup

I have discovered that there is something that people notice even more than a hair cut. Makeup. Eyeliner to be exact. For the first time I wore eyeliner on both my top and bottom lashes and it was ridiculous how many comments I got.
"You look very nice."
"I like your eyeliner."
"Did you do something differently? In any case it looks good."
"You look great today; and I'm not just saying that because you have cookies."
Then came the really strange comment.
"Wow Emily, you look...feral... You know, wild."
"Um... okay... I'm not sure if that's a compliment or an insult."
"No, I like it. It's a good look for you."
"Still not sure if that's a compliment."
Yeah, that was weird. In any case I had a very good day; but I might wear just a little less eyeliner tomorrow. I don't think I like looking "feral".

"Family Emergency"

I got called out of 5th period Chemistry for a "Family Emergency". It wasn't until I was picked up by my mom that I discovered this "emergency" involved a new set of rollers, and a HUGE bag of heavy duty makeup. Two hours later my hair looked amazing and my face... Well lets just say that it looked like I'd gone a little crazy; but it looks great in pictures! In other words, I LOVE FAMILY EMERGENCIES!!!!

Chick Flick Books

I like cartoon chick flick books. I'm not saying they're amazing literature. I'm not even saying they're good; but when I need to laugh at something so absolutely ridiculous and cute that I won't find it anywhere else, I know where to turn. Honest to goodness I think the real reason I like them is because that's the way I've convinced myself love should be. Two people should just fall in love and in the end it should all work out. I know that's totally unrealistic; but I suppose that's why I love to read about it. At least I get to live out my modern day fairy tale for a few hours.

Track Changes

I have learned that Open Office has something kind of sort of like track changes. They just don't work as well and any notes you print off to the side are just printed on the next page and you can't tell where they belong. It's pretty ridiculous. Still, it's a start. Now, to talk about something actually interesting... Today I learned how to make hearts and penguins appear on Facebook chat. It's pretty amazing. I am officially very proud of myself. Oh, and thank you to the friend who taught me how... I love you! I love you all!!!

Service

Today I could tell another Sunday School story... Yeah, another one of those took place... But something better happened today, two something betters in fact. First of all, I had a meeting to go to at 6:30 today. My dad and brother were headed out Visiting Teaching at 6 so I ended up at the church early, really early. To my surprise I was not the only one there. It was the other wards New Beginnings. Seeing how I had nothing better to do, and two of my best friends were there, and they had cute cupcakes, I stuck around for it. It was AMAZING. Full of spiritual messages, a great talk by one of my friends, and even harp music! And of course the cupcakes were delicious. Well after that and then my meeting it was time to head home. My dad and brother picked me up and on the way home informed me that on the way they were going to stop to shovel someone's driveway. At first I was annoyed. I have homework to do in the morning and wanted to get to bed early; but as I watched them shovel I realised how self centred I was being. I can't help but think how much more a shovel driveway will mean to that family compared to 20 minutes more of sleep for me. They really taught me a lesson today, one I needed to learn. I love my family.

Aiden

Aiden may be just about the most ANNOYING teenage boy in the WORLD!!! He does absolutely everything in his power to drive us all insane; and yet... Today when we were outside together and I was about to head in he actually started to have a descent conversation with me. Mostly because he didn't want to have to chop wood by himself; but it showed me that my amazing younger brother is still there. The one that people would mistake for my twin. He may go insane some days, and drive all of us insane too, but I still love him with all my heart.

Destiny

Destiny is a strange and mysterious thing. You cannot escape it, yet you have within you the ability to shape it into whatever you wish to make of it. I do not believe in Love at First Sight; but destiny I do believe in. I believe that some day I will find the right person; and then I will finally feel love. Until then what can I do but wait and sigh over cute actors? Speaking of which, I love Alex and Logan!!!